It is now the end of October, two months into the school year and I am still waiting for life to change! Professional development days, appointments, errands, a son who has been sick and out of school for a week and a half I'm beginning to realize that this "new phase" is really only more of the same. I often wonder when I will ever give myself permission to be anything more than just mommy! Of course being mommy is lovely and cherish it always but I often wonder how many other women experience the same identity crisis I seem to be facing.Oh well, another year then all three of my children will be lost to full time education and I'm sure I will be begging for it all to do over!
Thursday, October 22, 2009
A New Phase in My Life...maybe?!
As September approached I grew giddy! This year was going to mark a turning point in my life. My youngest daughter, Bronwynn, would be starting kindergarten. Kindergarten is half-time here mind you but the idea of having even every other day to myself after all my years as a stay-at-home mom would definitely be something to look forward to. I had my obligatory cry as my youngest and final child commenced her first day of formal education and then I was ready...ready to turn a page in my life, ready to move into a new and exciting "selfish" phase! Perhaps this phase would include career, maybe I could focus my attention on writing and art, maybe take courses, or even just catch up on all the things around the house that often seem impossible with children under foot.